My dad died suddenly, face down in the snow, 24 years ago today. It’s somehow unsettling to realize I’ve lived half of my lifetime without him, when on that nightmare day 24 years ago, I couldn’t imagine my life without him in it.
The reality is that you will grieve forever. You will not “get over” the loss of a loved one; you will learn to live with it. You will heal and you will rebuild yourself around the loss you have suffered. You will be whole again but you will never be the same. Nor should you be the same, nor would you want to.
Elizabeth Kubler-Ross
Most days are okay, are fine. But there are still times, like today, when I miss him so much I can sense my broken heart twisting, aching, inside my chest.
The thing about broken hearts, though, is that even though they never fully heal, they get bigger, and stronger, and filled with more and more love. They become works of art.
You will lose someone you can’t live without, and your heart will be badly broken, and the bad news is that you never completely get over the loss of your beloved. But this is also good news. They live forever in your broken heart that doesn’t seal back up. And you come through. It’s like having a broken leg that never heals perfectly–that still hurts when the weather gets cold, but you learn to dance with the limp.
Anne Lamott
I still miss you, daddy, but I’m so grateful I had you for 24 years, and that I have so many comforting memories and stories of you, and most of all, I’m so grateful you and mom taught me how to love.
And thank you for teaching me to dance with a limp.
♡♡
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Aw, thanks Candice! xo
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Your writing is absolutely lovely! xo
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What a marvelous compliment! Thanks!
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You deserve it my friend!
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Thank you
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You are so very welcome.
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A very sad but beautiful story…..and so true…Limp along my friend. Your doing just fine…
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Thanks Cheryl, it is difficult sometimes but no regrets…
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What a lovely tribute to grief Barbara.
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Thanks dear Shalagh xo
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A beautiful tribute to your parents, Barbara.
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Aw, thanks Lisa. They were so special–I was incredibly lucky 🙂
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