You find peace not by rearranging the circumstances of your life, but by realizing who you are at the deepest level.
I’ve begun trauma therapy after living with PTSD for thirty years, and I’m finding it, well, traumatic. Please God, may all of this pain lead me to the peace Merton describes.
A couple of weeks ago I was hospitalized for severe depression and PTSD. I am slowly, with the help of some amazing doctors, fighting my way back. It’s hard, I’m waiting for a new antidepressant to kick in, but I am attempting to focus on living day by day. It’s worth it. Maybe I’m worth it, too.
This is my first time posting as part of the Lensbaby Circle Blog, and for this post, I decided to go with just one subject, tulips. This is partly because of the delicious glow the Lensbaby Velevet56 (the lens I used for all of my shots, and so far my only Lensbaby) lends to all photographs, and also because I need new glasses/contacts and am having difficulty focusing in manual, and thought flower close-ups might be easier to practice on. (Note: All shots were taken at f4.) For my April post, I will be brave and mix things up a bit more!
I am changing my blog’s name to fit the direction I want to take it, and my writing. There will still be plenty of photography, and if anyone should be interested in making a purchase, just click on “Gingerfancy Photography” above the blog header. To read more about why I am changing the name, and how it fits with the past history of the blog, please keep reading. Also refer to the pinned post at the top of the blog, the quote by Frederich Buechner.
Welcome! I’m Barbara and one thing I want to make clear straight away is that I am determined to live a full, generous, and creative life, one filled with love and laughter, despite chronic pain and disability. This is a good time to plug in one of my favorite quotes, by Joseph Campbell:
We must be willing to let go of the life we planned so as to have the life that is waiting for us.